We are slowly creeping up on dating longer than we have been friends which just goes to show you how long we have known each other. From when I met you, I was at a place in my life where many things that you know of were quite not going according to plan, and thank god they didn't. Throughout all of these 'hardships' you were always there. Granted you were only living a building across from me, but i have always naturally found it easier to talk to you about what I was feeling and the way I was feeling things in a way where you made sure I was heard and comforted. I think there was a delicate balance between being serious in our conversations and joking around which I loved in the way we talked. It for once felt like I was talking without feeling like I am walking on eggshells. I guess this was our dynamic through first year, and when time came for our summer break I honestly felt like I was at a loss. I think it hit me that I won't be seeign you for the 4 months and that made me sad. All the highschool friends heard about this sadness, but I am most definetly sure they don't remember. You have heard this story before too but it was something that I never felt before for someone. I didn't think much of it and this was the same pattern for all the summers/breaks ahead except for when we were off-stream for the first time. I was sadder longer than I can remember and for the life of me I couldn't figure it out why. I kind of went back into a shell trying to figure out why I was feeling this way, and I think I kinda realized that I liked you was when we met again for a brief moment, but I had to leave, and your absence there left a hole in me. I realized after all this time I liked you more than just friends - so i did something about it lolz